The Person within ME

This is me, married with kids. I'm a people person although I may not show it with my facial expression. 

I grew up in the South Pacific, in the island of Tonga. I'm not surprised at all that most people here in the States don't have the slightest idea where Tonga is located. Ah, not fair because I maybe an island girl but I had to learn about the geography of the world and that includes every countries on the face of the earth.

I live my life everyday as if it's the my last day. If you ask me why? It's a very logical answer - That way I won't have time to complain, to judge, to stay mad, to gossip, or to waste my times. I'm not saying that I have not done all of the above but it's a lesson learned. It is a daily struggle and a battle but thinking of all the treasures hidden over yonder. I cannot wait to lay sight on them and to claim what is rightfully mine if I'll be successful in this battle.

This week has been an emotional one. I heard that the man I've always known to be my dad refutes that I am his. Basically, I belong to somebody else and in no way related to him. 
Seriously! My mother was married to the man in my birth certificate at the time of my birth. Rarely, was this man ever came around because he was a sailor man. End of story. I got stuck in a marital affair with two fathers and a mother who never spoke to me about it. I was left to decide for my own and while I did that, my bf (biological father) moved and my bc (birth certificate) dad moved away and even out of the country. So I was basically raised by my b.dad and did not get to meet my bc dad until i was 28 years of age.
As of today, I have so much to do to make for the lost times with my Saviour. I have been trying to do my best to assist  my dad and with the hardship in the economy these days. I don't send him $$ as much as I want. THIS IS WHY! I don't send a lot of money, i'm not his daughter anymore. Can you believe that?
The only comfort I have is my GOD. I turn to him and HIM only because he is the best listener. These days, everybody talks and nobody listens. My God is willing to listen and assist at the best possible time. 
Never have I thought of my father doing such a thing to me and I don't hate him. I just remember that "everybody else will fail you, even your parents but not your God".

to be continued........